I have lost count how many times i have felt guilty for not being able to/not having done something for my son. It's either the food, the apple crumble i have not baked, or it's the movie i have not taken him to, or when i have not felt like taking his studies or felt bad at yelling at him for not behaving. Other than that there has been the guilt that his father travels long periods and so i have to be doubly accommodating, or because his teacher did not give him a gold star or because his friends fail to show up on his birthday (every year) as it falls bang in the middle of summer and they are away on a holiday.
Phew! I never knew i have been carrying so much guilt inside me and for so long. It's eating me from the inside and i have to do something before i crumble to pieces like that apple crumble i never baked.
2013 dawned and i have made myself a New Year Resolution - "That i shalt not feel guilty anymore, for things i haven't done for my son. " I am no SuperMom and i cannot do everything that my son wants. There are times when i have to put myself before his self, there are
situations like when i am burning with fever that i wont be able to do
certain things, there are times when i will have to say 'No' to him just
so that he knows that he cannot always get his way.
I have done and am doing quite a lot - for him. Like i have just now managed to cook payash (the Bengali rice kheer delicacy), which he is relishing with every mouthful applauding me with a 'Super, Mom!" all along.
So what if i can't be a SuperMom; i still am 'Super' in the true sense of the word.
All of you Moms keep trying to do the impossible, thinking you are SuperMoms; you have far too many expectations from yourself, which cannot be fulfilled and therefore lead to frustrations and guilt. You cannot be a SuperMOM, but you can be a "Super, Mom!"
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